Do you have a church “home” brother and a Pastor that you can ask about the things of God. Holiness is not living in a cave. It’s fellowship, it’s service, it’s surrender, it’s the will of God, it’s living, and dying every day. It’s not abstract, it’s a pure heart before God by the blood of Jesus Christ. And walking in the light as God gives the light. Love unfiegned. Sincere prayers full of faith and passion. A life with an eye on the altar and an eye on the field. And circumcision of heart and the charge, “Abstain from all appearance of evil.”
1 Thessalonians 5:22
The “wholly” of 5:23 might help you…